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I want you to know...

Dear Jasmine, I know you are home and I could just spend some time talking with you, but sometimes neither of us is in the mood to communicate with the other. Part of what I want to achieve with this blog is having a way I can reach out to share my thoughts and feelings with you a bit. I do this because I want you to know I am thinking about you, and because, I hope, that you will use these writings as a reassurance of those feelings. When I was growing up, I always felt like everything I did wasn't good enough. I remember how I always felt like I had screwed up in some way and how I would focus on that to the exclusion of everything else. It didn't matter how many compliments I got or how well I did, if I didn't do the best out of everyone or I heard a criticism, I felt like a failure. Over time I stopped caring because I felt like no matter what I did I wouldn't be any good, so why bother trying. Over more time that feeling only grew worse because as time went on,...
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Sooner than I wanted...

Dear Jasmine, As Serene approached her eighteenth birthday, I decided that I would begin writing a blog for her. I felt it would be a great way to share bits of wisdom I have picked up in life and to let her know I cared. I had planned to do the same for you and Jade as well, but life is unpredictable and I think that now is a better time to begin this journey with you. I wanted to do this when you were about to turn eighteen. I wanted to give you something that hopefully helps you think and helps you understand me and how I feel about you better. While I wanted to wait until you were eighteen to begin this blog, circumstances have changed and I feel like this blog will be more useful to you now than it will be in a couple of years. I don't really know where to start right now. I have so much I want to say to you, but I want to say it in the right way. You and I have had a lot of issues with communication over the years, and the last thing I want is for something I intend to be a...
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